Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year


Today is the 24th December and tomorrow will be the Christmas Day. If I was still in Thailand, this will be a very common day for me - go to work and no celebration. But it's a big day in the Netherlands. People go to visit their family and celebate. It's a chance for them to be together. I guest that it's like 'Song Kran Day' of Thailand or 'the Chinese New Year' for Chinese.

I am now in Zwolle at a home of Robert. I spend most of my time on reading. I went out to the train station to change the money, but I still cant go to the other places. The reason is that I cant remember a road here. I would bring a map with me next time.

SOmetime life is good. Sometime it's boring. SOmetime it is suffering and full of thoughts leading a lot of unhappiness. It's life anyway. I am always wondering how would life be if I am a nun in the forest. Or if I am still at home. Or if I go to study at the other country. I guess that my life will be different (more or less) but it must always be full of the worldly emotion and feeling.

Next year my life will be in pattern til the end of the year - love,eat, sleep, study, travel around. I hope that it will be full of peace and happiness. I really love them.

May peace always be with all of you too....

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Loneliness (2)

I really like this picture. Sometime I feel the same esp. during these days. Most of the time I sit in my room - reading books, checking email and news from Thailand, chatting. I go out sometime but not very often as I dont know very much the places here. I know only a few people - and they are not close enough that I can talk or go out with them. Actually I dont have any friend. Students here just study in their rooms and office. There are some academic activities at the uni - but again, they just come to discuss about something and then go back. The social life is very low. I really feel lonely now....

My close friend told me that it's not easy to be aboard and study. I have to be strong to deal with it. I now realize how it's like esp if you also got some other problem that is not easy to deal with and that distracts you from your study.

I try to remind myself to study hard and try to concentrate on that. But it's not easy as I want it to be. My emotion and mental state are not ready for that......

I miss my family, my sister and my friends at home.

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Tuesday, December 09, 2008


Sometime I am not quite sure if what I have done is right or wrong. It would be good if we can tell in advance what gonna happen in the future. Then we will be on the right track.

Anyway, if everything is forseen or predictable, it wouldnt be 'life'. Or if it's life, it would not be real as it lacks of excitement or interest. But I am thinking if I really need that or not.

Loung Por Cha always said that 'everything is uncertain'. I always remind myself about this- no matter how happy or unhappy I am. But it seems I never really realize it when I am very satisfied with life. The realization just comes with some kind of unsatisfaction.

I hope that in the future I will realize this 'truth' by 'mind', NOT 'thought' as any kind of thought never helps when the real suffering comes. If it could help, it's just a while.....very short time. Then all the suffering just takes over my heart again.

Friday, December 05, 2008

Long Live the King

Today (5th December) is the birthday of King Bhumipoladulyadej, the Thai king. He is 81 in this year. It is a public holiday in Thailand. But here, the Hague, is just a normal day. But the Thai Embassy in the Netherlands (also located in the Hague) arranged the activity for Thai people who live in the Netherland to bless for the king. We lighted the candle and sang 2 national anthem songs devoted particularly for the king and the queen.

The king has done a lot for the country. There would be a lot more trouble if the king wasnt there. A lot of poor people esp in the local area have been helped and developed by the Royal's project. I think you can find this information everywhere in Thailand.

The other good thing of being there today is it's a great chance to meet other Thai people/students living/studying here. I am not very close to anyone (as usual). But I met some friends that I havent met for a year. I feel like it's very enjoyable to meet and talk to other people esp when I am aboard, though I dont know them very much. It's also a big fun to see the way they talk and play with each other - very Thai...hahaha I dont know how to explain but we can tell that by ourselves.

I wish the king is getting better from his sick. When I do the chanting tonight, I will make a wish for him.

Long Live The King